Steven's Corner

fatty

2011-10-23T14:17:00.002+08:00

i just uploaded my school time pics, everyone was so shocked. what is actually happened to myself.

i gained 30kgs for the passed 2 years, no joke, 30kgs. i plan N times for slim down, it never happen, ha ha.

bought a set of slim down plan, but never keep on going, mindset problem. always think another way round. too conservative. to fear to accept failure.

fucking hate myself when i was in fitting room testing jean. i couldnt wear these beautiful clothes for this fucking obesity probe.

thin never is my word, but i dont want fat following me forever. kinda down recently, but yet, i am surviving.

no matter how, i must go thru all this, and i BELIEVE!

I-THINK (我想)

2011-09-24T14:16:00.003+08:00

第一次,用中文寫下自己的心情, 感覺還挺特別的, 看來我的中文語病不比英文來得少.

CHAPTER 1.MYLIFE 篇

踏入社會,YEAR 2, 覺得原地自轉, 徘徊再懷疑自身的能力. 永遠被弱點支配, 發覺自己還不成熟, 悲哀

明瞭不狠, 不振, 不變通, 在社會, 等著好像 AMERICA'S GOT TALENT 那樣被當掉.

KIASU?KIASI? 下意識認同這兩個現代化理念. 'kiasi=self protecting, don't get me wrong'

藉口?因人而異吧. 自律,決心, 總是比較少了些. 通病 or 認命?

如果把魔嘼世界的HERO DESCRIBE MY ULTIMATE, 有兩招,逃避和自我矮化.

這不是EMO POST, BUT, 最近的心情寫照. 感慨偽人遠勝偉人. 我, 斗不過現實.

擱筆,

-思題奮-

body weight problem= health problem

2011-07-09T23:52:00.002+08:00

went a health centre today, listen to a senior engineer sharing about his success story, health awareness, earn money while you are able to slim down + back in better condition.

my current weight, 95.9KG, ideal weight 63KG = 33KG to go

my current health condition 18, ideal measurement,5= 13 to go

work life health balance, pray eat love, execute my plan soon =)

many many times of tomorrow

2011-07-07T14:13:00.002+08:00

i said to myself, this round i aint gonna lose again, but i gave up eventually, i promised myself this will be my last try, but i did it again. for god sake, human like me doesnt deserve for achievement , successful life. always stay in comfort zone, thousand lies and excuses

this time, i wanna write down my -to do list- on my blog, see how many things i can get it done, get it right, get it in the best result in good time frame:

1. today is 7 of July, will make sure this month hit another million higher compare to last month, by all means, another big leap for my job, high but truly achievable.

2. in 3 months time i must make myself real slim down, my recent's weight, 96kgs, yepp, freaking heavy and overweight till the max. target, 3kgs is a must, 5kgs is fine, 8kgs is perfect, i wanna test my own determination.

3.stop waste and get wasted. i wasting my time and money for get wasted. maybe a slow 1, currently visiting pubs and bars 7 days per week. moreover influence my buddy =D =D bad influence, hehehe!

4. rest early, well planning ahead as well.

5. will revise this all again after a month, and review of myself too.

aging

2011-05-08T20:53:00.002+08:00

recently start back to blog again, alil bit in love with blogging again. i am the person who loves to record down my feelings and thoughts during my journey of life, but for time being, people will thinks that i am action, in fact, i do think alike what i look alike =D

freaking sad bout my appearance, maybe my friend dont ever realize i was actually mind bout how people look at me, althou hairloss makes me look older,i dint give up for getting it back again, while my beard always grow faster than my hair, hahahhaa! btw, i am really worried bout my body weight, because of the appearance,i had lost all my confident

i believe that, a man like me, only gained those weird attraction, people will only discuss bout my hair, my tummy, my face, none of them discuss bout my inner beauty.i had giving up for this thingy, i swear to god, from now on, i dont need any sympathy but, i will do my best to slim down, and stop the mid-age crisis which approach 20years early. i must be optimist!

best friend

2011-05-08T13:48:00.002+08:00

always thought be your best buddy, i can take it when you found you loves1

always overestimate myself able to walk thru the rain whereas you are no longer bother about me

always willing to contribute the unconditional cares and love which i used to gave in

always think that i am really can say hi to you whenever i bumped into you, or msn, fb

i am a coward, when anything that remind me of you, do you know that i fall for you?

Diary

2011-05-02T22:12:00.002+08:00

once,i remember i heard this in a movie which i already forgotten the name of this movie, long winded right. my style. lol. erm do u heard this before?

'i come, i see, i conquer' - the great alexander

'i come, i blog, i remember'- steven

so,i decided to write more from now onwards. thanks!

Love drunk

2011-05-02T21:54:00.002+08:00

I look alike mid-age uncle right now, no longer sad for my appearance. currently worry about my health, i can't breath well, certainly, soulless movement and lotsa minor minded stuff occurred. i guess, alcohol had eaten up all my brain cells, i not only plans to quit, but quit beer asap. orelse,i might not only die in young age, diseases strike too.

ok.back to topic. love drunk. why love must drunk? do you guys realize that while your friends in love or in the stage of courting and flirting, most of them will self-deception sounds hurt, but i think its true. like wise, most of those couple and lovers, love birds, act like an big baby during those time. people told me this, you will do some which is very extraordinary when u in love in with somebodyelse, you dont even know how to judge black and white, love is color of blind ya.

some times i might thirst for love, but i dont need it afterall, u can call me selfish,but i trust that, till i can be in those unconditional love mode again,i dont mind to be drunk again. at this moment,i wanna be successful 1st, and launch my mayday plan.peeps wish me luck

thanks! =) with <3

25,i am 25

2011-04-30T11:44:00.001+08:00

so fast,i am 25 already, yet achieve nothing, always doubt that what is actually happen to me. i really need to move faster! bucked up man!

Social Learning Theory

2011-04-09T08:36:00.002+08:00

cunning and fake, we aren't born that way. i cant accept that, you hate the certain person, yet, you force yourself be good to him/her. we called that fake, in fact, we practice this when we are into it,i believe that, only hypocrite able survive.

recently i met a person, which i dislike this people quite...a lot. ya, actually this fella wasnt fake or cunning, just that, dont even take initiative to blend into the human circle. overprotected are the most dangerous weapon if you wanna spoil some1else 's life.

communication. i learnt alot of communication skills back to college time, in the end, social surviving skill are lot important, you cant learn it anywhere, but in society. the fees maybe a lot, or maybe you have to repay something which is very important to you.

today, i know what is social learning theory, to be an ultimate asshole.

Bay Song

2010-10-09T21:00:00.003+08:00

It is Not a hatred post, i swear to god, but something negative, fed up d ma. again, you wasting everyone's precious time, and it just like never end story, fuck you for the sake of god, if i am almighty , i will end your life just like that, why? wasting people's time equally a murderer. since our activity involved some many human being, so you are the serial killer. yes you!

i just wanna blab for few things here, just a simple reminder for a so called leader.

shit happened for a reason, don't expect people to whip you ass every time you poo, and you want people clear up for, of course can, but with good manner would you?

time management, time, time is gold, you see my time as go? just like air? you manage your time well, don't you feel guilty while most of the people are there already and waiting for you? must feel shame ma, i don't care whether your are babysitter or sensei, while people ask puncture? ya, on time please!! fuck you, you are the one should fuck by negro, idiot!

i admit, always feel impatient bout your behavior, yalah, i should say sorry to you, i shouldn't expect you might be one of the rising star, but at least, when everyone is de-grading, go-stun liao, lu lagi walk backwards, i thought this shouldn't occur, because you are too weak to down graded!

And the very last request, please don't act like a team leader, nobody listen to you, especially me, i only salute/ respect to those who impressed me, you din't , tell you a norm among peoples who really dislike you, i don't use hate, because hating a people is actually tiring job, you know what norm was that? 'wei, you are aliltle bit better than HIM only" and that was the most sarcastic made for us. LOLX

pls grow up dude!

I met some problems

2010-10-06T18:12:00.002+08:00

health problem, financial crisis, confident problem, any solutions?

Plans

2010-09-28T12:20:00.003+08:00

I wanna get a job, a very #1 task, I wanna slim down, yet, haven't starts any executions.

There is something up on my mind, i need to do what i should, what i want, planning without action.

Its only plain talk cock nia. wake up!

Friend.

2010-09-26T13:37:00.002+08:00

This post is specially dedicate to Yibin, who will leaving on end of this Sept, the date drawing near ade some how.

I don't need a friend who can spend me beer or meal, i need a friend share me beer and nice meal,

I don't need a friend who can fetch me everywhere, but when my car broke down, he can fetch me or help me call for help

I don't need a friend who offer me a job, i just need their sincere advice on my career

I don't need a friend bring my chicks, i prefer a friend bring me know his dude

And luckily, i have many of mine friends able to do so, sounds demanding, i am doing the same way to my friends too,to the my buddies, whole night long chat, i able to offer you guys =)

People told me, when you get older, you will have lesser friends, i should say, you may gain some while you losing some.

One of my best friend, my beer mate, my tea mate, will left Malaysia for U.K in this coming week, i would say, i feel upset and happy at the same time. sad coz might not seeing him for 2 years or maybe if he able to settle down in U.K. then will be very rare chance to meet up ade. Happy for him, because not every1 able to further their study in U.K although its getting common.

Anyway, Yibin, i wish you have the best undertaking in your future, and please come back Malaysia, you know people here do really needs you badly, take care always!

Racist

2010-09-22T20:09:00.002+08:00

I hate racist, superbly hate racist. the racist i mean here is not only people who ask Malaysia chinese go back China via AA, as well as chinese who talk alike racist. in fact, if they arent 1, they wont talk alike racist.

Fuck the racist! I damn hate racist, don't la like that, i meet lotsa decent malaysians, since you are 1 of them, why call those racist as barbarian? ya, you may right in some way, think about you, when you sound so vengeful, you already one of them, different team only, you are in minority of gang, this is silly okay!

Ya, i am so idiot because of those few stupid words, but i do really care bout my country, i born as Malaysian, i called myself as overseas chinese, in fact, i still loves my tanah air, i will never forget this phase, "We are the Rakyat". Fuck the inequality in Msia, just do what you can, at least be a voter.

sign off. (with anger still)

It is not the ending i wish to see

2010-09-20T17:12:00.002+08:00

I heard this phrase many times, don't know since when, push a button, is not really that difficult, its depend on who you are, what you are.

It is So beautiful while you begun a new relationship, and you couldn't imagine how ugly will it be "when Loves comes to the end"

"It is not the ending wish to see" i believe that, job hunt is just similiar with your human relationship, "this is not i want" what i often tell my friend, excuse? nope, i haven't met the right one, will you be with someone else for simply lonely? maybe yes maybe not. the best is not for me lah.

I am still looking for the right one, wish me luck!

Signed off
-Steven-

Calculative

2010-09-20T16:57:00.004+08:00

i used to be very generous, and kind to everyone, i mean, most of my friends, even strangers, i just figured it out, my blood turns into cold and colder. At least, i don't simply do charity, or treats everyone the same way.

When you gets older, you might see things differently, the thing which i mean here is, the dark side of human. One of the most unbearable human's ugly behavior for me is, Selfish. i know, it is kinda ridiculous if asking your friend treat you equally, some people claims they don't judge friend, but the way they did to you, it reflected the status in his mind, and i call this people as talker. this type of people talk well, you wanna seek help from them, save the breath for yourself, and maybe the trouble lesser than waiting the assist.

Being calculative wasn't a sin, you had have so many best friends, so it is impossible to be decent to every of them, and i guess, you rate your friend via what potential they have. when you spend a penny on your friend, you are hoping to get it back 100times from what u have invested. impressive, you are greater than Buffett, even Steve Jobs offer you a job.

Too try to be a man, don't you always fooling people stays around you, doncha you think this is so unfair to them? when people be nice to you, remember, dont take in for granted, unconditional contribution normally bring you bigger tragedy, be consideration a bit, there is no free lunch in this world, even fresh air, you need to pay for it.

-END-

My life Journal

2010-09-19T15:23:00.002+08:00

My English getting worst and rotten nowadays, writing and speaking, feel worried bout it. have to brush up my language through post more blog, in fact, its kinda wrong too, because nobody will know what mistake they had made, human doesn't self evaluate that often, and this is a fact!

My grammar are sucks, yet, i have no solution on it, aih, let it be lah! anyway, this blog is not blog about my language, 2 days ago, i had made up my mind, i decide to give a try, and test myself, so i gotta brush up my english before i take this challenge, before the journey starts again....

Thank god, i dint delete my present blog, which i had an intention to do so, after read back some of my posts, i able to trace myself, where i am now, and whether i am improving or still stepping on the same spot? reluctant, i am walking backwards actually, i shall remind myself via this Life journal.

Finally, buck up man! A man who live without dreams and career, not qualify as a Real Man! i wanna be something more than i turn into something, sounds catchy aye? have a lil brainstorm bout it lah peeps, again, Adios!

-steven-

Racist

2010-09-19T14:42:00.003+08:00

Pakatan Rakyat ( people's collision) took over 4 states in Semenanjung during General Election march of 8th, so here we are, Malaysian, finally the government recognize 16sept as Malaysia's days, sounds weird, but in fact, i prefer this meaningful day compared with so called independent day.

contributions from belated almarhum Tunku Abdul Rahman cannot be erase, i only able to know a little bit of him from some article, even is just a simple piece of his life, and some quote from Malaysia's independent father, but his love towards his nation, his RAKYAT was endless. Tunku never say, kerana melayu, sebab itu tanah air ini namanya, Malaysia. if today, he is still alive, he might die instantly because of today's Bumi's

today, i am not blog about politic, but i have these kind of saddening feel during Malaysia day, why still tons of politic leaders torn apart between races in order to be the ruilling party? suddenly,i miss Yasmin Ahmad alot, i miss her, not because of she produce good PSA, but , she taught us, how to be more COLORBLIND. dont be so hatred, peeps, i do have some malay friends who respect chinese and other races, and i have some chinese friends who are very racist, please aware this, ARE, meaning they are still.

i am doubt about some parents, told them children this way " dont talk to them, they are idiot than chinese..." ya. right, you look alot more pighead when you told this to your children, i believe only 1 thing, human being are not born to be racist, they had being influence, blind folded, if i were god, how i wish to turn all the racists into blind, so that they wont that racist? does it works? i doubt.

GTG,
-Steven-

Doutbful

2010-09-18T16:20:00.002+08:00

Blogging Mood knocking on the door, Bloggaroll! yeah, 2nd post of the day, since 2 months ago, havent log on my blog, i should write it more, its just a journal of my life, feelings and thoughts of life, twisted comment as well, haha!

about Iphone, facebook, LV Burberry and Clubber cultures, currently is like tornado, overwhelmingly growth everywhere,i mean, usage, level of popular, getting higher, and the range of user group age become more varieties, from 13 to 65 yr old, really hardly to follow the trend ade (refer to facebook, and branded diseases)

i doubtful bout 2 things, why have some certain kind of human keeping show off with their Facebook, like so grateful with her/his current life, worship with god la, bla bla bla. i know. loving your life wasnt a sin, but when you telling how blissful you are, please think of people who live around you, some of them might very unlucky.

"i wanna buy pair of new heels, i hate "vincy", too ordinary and CHEAP!" "i wanna shop shop shop!" " i wanna go honeymoon at Malibu~" " in L.A now, i Love L.A " think bout it, when you kap siao kap pi that time, u might hurted ur friend, and if you able to spend for that much, do it for charity, sounds good aye? my philosophy very simple only, i prefer every1 is happy, better than i happy alone

OK, stop ranting, haha, its not a hatred blog, jz some weird thought of mine, and i doubt did LV and Burberry lifts u up, do facebook really bring you real friends? show off makes u looks beautiful, the others uglier than you?i say nolo, to those hypocrite, dont tell the whole world you are so damn gay with ur life now, ppl feel sick, me either. GTG

signed 0ff
-steven-

life, you will never know until you realize its gone

2010-09-18T15:58:00.002+08:00

In my life, i often met this type of homosapien, "i heard from A, we shouldn't do this action", "according to friend of mine, the place is quite nice", "they said and they say..." i noticed this type of human, they arent those who without opinion, but they prefer convert their own opinion, to the "others", when ppl disagree with them, they just push away, it wasnt me! duh!

i am struggle over few issues bout myself, have no result still, always proscastinating, self deceit , excuses, bla bla bla.....keep telling myself that tomorrow will be better, i can figure it, i can fix it, end up-nothing! i am so lost, until i lost myself,i dont even know what am i doing recently, buck up buck up!

ok, pls bear with me bout tis, i really heard from 1 of my friend, "let say u have only 6hour left for ur life, what will you do?" i really cant tell, and i dont even know what i should put in the 1st place, what comes after, meaning, its still long way for me to go, i had wasted my life for nearly half years, no joke, precisely, 4months. i gain nothing besides of body weight.

-Life, you will never know WHAT YOU HAD MISSINg, until you realize its gone- i missed a dream, i missed myself, i missing the sense of belonging, and the taste of victory, no life satisfactory for this 120days, how sad?! life is only 1 way ticket, and if i have chance, i will answer my friend for the previous question he gave me, "i gotta woke up from this long day dream, and bucked up, earn back what i suppose to have at my age, what is my future plans."

with you question, i generate another silly thought, "think bout what had u done in your life, if you only left 6hrs on this world?"

signed off,
-steven-

Its good to be true

2010-07-08T17:34:00.002+08:00

yesterday went Penang Heritage day. not too bad. the only regret was, i am so lack of history knowledge on Penang. shame on me. is like, you dont know your grand parents well. shame or not? FYI, Adelaide and Georgetown are sisters city, i just knew it from CEO Goh.lolx! watched She's out of my league, 4 and a half stars rate for this love comedy. simply love the story line, the stars, the jokes in the movie, and the way they present the movie, of cause, nonstop swore and funny scene, haha!

for the movie, i dint put in high hope at 1st. but eventually, this movie bring me lot of joy and hope, although is just a movie. but wat they had presented is really so true. and good. "i am 10,you are 5, you hope that i have some flaws so that you are only able to match with me?" "in my eyes, no matter you are unorganized, drive that fucking old neon, stupid, you are 10 made for me"

thank you for the producer and director of this movie, of coz, crews, stars, alive eve, jay bahchulle, u guys rocks, and thank you for the life lesson and the jokes. "stand back again from where you fell"

-no one is perfect, when you met some one is worth to be with, then you found the precious and the perfect one for yourself-

sign off
-steven-

heartbreak

2010-07-04T15:05:00.002+08:00

my 1st blog since half yrs ago. what a long time ago. i tot i can use this blog to record down every lil thg i had. but still failed. yesterday for the very 1st time feel heartbreak after few months ago. the tango made my day. gone bad. i am really sad for the result.i couldnt accept it until now. maybe i shall give up. give up to love something i love.i belongs to sorrow and horror. i bring bad luck to those innocent 1.i feel guilty. i am sorry, Argentina.

To Argentina Fans,
-Blame the players, Dont blame the game_

congratulations, Germany!

Sign off,
steven

How i cure my loneliness. how i cure when i miss someone.

2009-11-02T14:21:00.002+08:00

Typical Aquarius cant beat boredom and loneliness. once i told my friend, there are something you can kill me, make me mute,broke my legs or throw me to a stranded island,and i am serious with it.in life, there is 2 elements i wouldn't miss out, entertainment, and football. Entertainment concluded, social life, friends, music, movie. football? this sport had following me for a decade, the day still count on =)

back in hometown nearly a month, time flies, and i am wasting my time too, haha! frankly, now i only pick myself up to be more serious on my job hunting, finally, i got some ideal plans in my mind, too bad, i am still in dilemma......nowadays, i oldtown's regular customers. spending whole afternoon at old town coffee shop.for? internet access lo. and cure my coffee addiction too. i am gonna be one of the Malaysia Diabetis Association's member very soon.

my temper became worst, alil bit of lost control, abit lost too. i hate to be alone, but still need to overcome it. when i said i dont wanna miss her, but i keep on doing something which will make me think of her, i ate a lot of instant noodle, i ate chocolate, i ate ice cream, and i am getting fatter. i drink a lot too recently. must do some changes d. cant keep on like this.

i realize, when you keep on deny missed some1 else, u might miss her more, and doing the act which will remind her/him more. i will keep my faith until the day i found it again. and i am ok =)

signed off

Decision, Dilemma

2009-11-02T13:46:00.002+08:00

I read an article bout life and decision making,which might bring a huge impact in our life,and there is something that inspired me the most.let share this here:

What is your Biggest fear?

What are fear of while you the result so unpredictable.

What bothering you the most all the time?

The problem/issue that bothering you the most, are the thing u care the most

Do not always blame on opportunity did not approach you, ask yourself, had you well prepared?

Luck are with those who work hard.

thanks to Mr Tee. he made me changed my mind after have a long conversation with him. very grateful. although i don't trust god, but if he really do exist, he still havn't abandoned, forgotten me. thanks a lot.i think i have to brush up my language before i decide to pick this challenge up.

"God close your front door, he will open another exit for u"

No. 1

2009-08-04T22:40:00.002+08:00

one day,my fren ask"eh,when is your bday??"

i feel excited pulak dat time,haha,tot she wanna give me stgelse on my bday

"erm 11feb lo"

"you maybe the type of person got leadership wan..."

i was like "............"

erm.....she say, according to visiber punya calculation hor, ppl like me can be leader...

ok.my post wasnt to show off myself,i jz wanna say that, sumtimes, ppl tend to be supertitious,

afterall, because this type of ppl keep in faith,believe in everythg they do,finally,they success,

so i understand that, always have faith in what you do my friend, and take care =)

sign off,

steven

tiger beer

2009-07-26T04:39:00.002+08:00

had been long long time we never drink together,is damn crazy for tonight, we are never try drink so much after our club after yr1, tonight i am really enjoy it.

too bad, now alergy starts attack my palm, both also felt damn numb right now, dont know what will happen after i wake up.haha,watever, like what people always says:what comes around,goes around =)

i am happy cz finally today i can see you again, i am not hoping anything,anymore,when you are smile, my heart are smilling too. no matter what happens in future, nothing gonna change your status in my heart.

i wil take my time,i am idiot,but i am trying my best. dont be afraid,i will not be that rush,that aggresive anymore

you must always take good care of yourself ya =)

sign off,
steven

Expression

2009-07-24T02:52:00.002+08:00

abandoned my blog for month plus already, my writing mood always come when mid of the night, i am pretty sure, my brain works better and i can think better,do better decision at this moment. each time when i am dropping new post for my blog, normally is the time i cant find somebody talk to me,i am saying my friends cant help, just that, sometimes i cant even tell what had happened to me. to be frank, this kind of situation are the most tragic, because you dont know what to do/you know,but you dont wanna do......

i totally agree that, music can affects ppl's mind, recently pick up few favourite songs and quote some lyrics share with my readers, and the lyrics somehow is kinda meaningful for me as well, can be my word of express too. I may not say it quite as much i as should, when i say i love you that means for good, only death do us apart,i dont care what they say,i wanna be with you, you are everything in my life,you completes me.

i cant explain this feeling,i think about you everyday,if one day we need to move on, please remember me. when i fall in love,i will take my time, there is noneed to hurry made up my mind, all i wanna say is i wanna be with you.

Today,part of me dies,when i let you go.-blind by lifehouse

where am I?who i am?

2009-06-12T03:03:00.002+08:00

too free recently, free doesnt mean you are rest well
basically, i am mentally busy........full of nonsense from my mouth
full of excuses in my mind.i am so dead.

nevermind, tomorrow will be another wonderful day
as long as i do as i planned.
"dont give up if there is end in front, try to find a turning point"

sign off,nites mates.

meaningless

2009-06-12T03:01:00.003+08:00

when you got time
u wont go and blog
when you are busy
u will try to blog
u blog,blog for nothg,jz wanna blog it out
too free.too many nonsense.too much to write
dont wan blog liao
too busy,then u will blog,becz of u wanna get away from busy

sam raimi-(drag me to hell)!!!!!

actually nth do with the movie.lol

-steven-

objection

2009-05-05T06:19:00.002+08:00

ppl says, dare to dream big, is a achiever. but i say, dream too big, is a wet dreamer,

ppl says, dare to try, is a warior, but i say, simply make a try, will be an all time loser,

ppl says, dare to risk, will be an overcomer, but sumtimes, ppl create risk for themself.

act i got nothing to blog,jz some stupid post, and i wanna say,

i dare to dream, because human are magnificent because of dream.

i dare to try, because nobody will be a forever failure.

i dare to risk, because taking risk we see the chance, no pain no gain, no try no luck.

i will never let go this time.

gotta go, 6.30am in the early morning.

-steven-

Update

2009-05-05T05:39:00.002+08:00

Nearly a month never log in to my blogspot, not because of got nothing to post for
just recently,i am really begun to be busy again, mentally and physically. In additional, serious bout my life this time, for the very first time. The reason i drop this post, i was inpired by one of my coursemate, KY,thanks to him, his patient, determination, loyalty makes me feel i am so tiny, and thanks for ur post, ur post convince me that, when you really want her, you must do everything, anything to make her happy, and i have to salute to u for this thoughts.

loyal is not a sin, liking someone else is not a sin, but i am always defeated to myself, my negative minded, my low-self esteem, i am a human have nothing, because of i dont have self-confident. i am not blaming anyone for that, its only myself caused everythgs went wrong. Good for nothing? i always claimed to my fren, i am good for nothing. for all this while, i havnt take my life seriously, how irresponsible i will be??do i realize that??posible for me be more commited?be more obligate??i dont know....

Negative is my name, low-self confident is my bestfren, irresponsible significants me, haha, how pathetic?ya, think so.i dont know how wicked i am when i hate sumbody, i dont know how good i will be if i want to,i dun even know how to express myself in front of you. pls forgive me that i am cowardly avoid to admiting i am fall for you, pls forgive me that i thinks i am not able to cheer u up, pls forgive me when someday, i leaving for not burdening you anymore, but i dare to say,i realli want you.at least in my own blog, HAHA!

Had i try my best to be better person?no, i got a tons of fxxking excuses for myself, to make myself feel better after any mistake i done, but now on, no more, i gotta throw all these away, for you, for myself,orelse, no future.

when i see you, i am really happy and enjoy the moment that u spent with me, at the same time, i am afraid of i will addicted to you, i am afraid that one day u might be not sharing ur time with me again,i admit,i am selfish, i am selfish for you. why i am in PJ for past few years, recently i onli know the answer. y i am still single, cz i believe that u r still with me.

thanks for light up my life again, thanks for encouraging me, thanks for strenghten my spirit to go thru everythg, thanks for making me trust in love again, i am very grateful and thankful to god, i believe, in faith,in fate, in you. no matter how, i will not simply give up anymore, no matter how, i will try all i can to be with you. no matter how, i will change myself for good, change myself for you.

-steven-

How i wish you were mine

2009-03-25T20:36:00.001+08:00

so sudden, u walk into me once again

i dont know what to do

i dont know how to do

i know,i really want you

no matter what i say or do, I really WANT YOU

please dont fail me yet, can give me a trial?

Thoughts.

2009-03-18T14:19:00.002+08:00

Strong people getting strong, weak people getting weaker

Life getting old,life getting shorter

mind getting mature,behaviour getting disgrace

some people spent their whole life to search meaning of life

some people spent a second to end the meaning of life

always open your heart open your mind

stay silent can think more, talk more gain less

the genius are not the real genius,but they put much more effort, much more faith into what they believe in

the idiot not the real idiot, just they spent longer to learn, nobody know how to cherish them.

respect to everyone include your enemy

excuses are for lifetime loser, dont blame the game,blame the player.

Many people dont know how to write RESPECT, they dont even understand what is RESPECT,
so what for you study so much?pls, dont feel that you are superior, your life is jz a big joke for me. Remember what you did today, remember how people do to you next time, its Karma, what goes around, comes around. Damn FED UP!

-steven-

Education system

2009-03-01T17:12:00.002+08:00

what kind of education can makes your children became like

Teacher:Who is your name? What is your ambition?
Student: Lee xiao Ming. Erm, toktor(doctor) lor, becos can earn many many money mar~!!

Teacher:you know who is the creator of light bulb? Who is Adolf Hitler?
Student:Aiya, Exam wont ask one lar,i dotnor also.....who lai??

Teacher:Do you have any malay or Indian friends?
Student:Dong have ler, coz i donk like Malay 1

Teacher:why?
Student:becoz Mumi say they are bad lo

Teacher:..........

*The conversation are created for entertain purpose, pls dont try it at home XP

After spending almost 3yrs, knowing many unimates who from different part of malaysia, i notify something. some school really evil(maybe not school,jz some extremist teacher). they manipulate some student into racist minded, what can this kind of ppl in education world??

you can help ur student,but in fact harms their future, they are not good in chinese, bad in english,malay, nonid further explaination anymore lor,of coz they hate this language as well.

how far will they go?only god knows.....

-steven-

Branding

2009-03-01T16:14:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, Persuasion are really effective after all, U.S done it very well, as long as those product Made in USA, it must be a good, durable, quality product, no doubt, U.S are the country which most highly pour their hard work,effort in Branding industry, the machine we bought, the clothes we wore on, the language we speak, the movie we watched and etc.

The Americans use their superb great persuasion skills, manipulate people out of the state, in order to sold their product,earning Dong,Rupee,Ringgi,Renmingbi, push U.S currency to the max, again,using their "influential" status, tend to control the world.

The only country are still have faith to themself,to their own ethnics, the japanese, u shud give them a salute,y say so?becz they dont trust foreign product, but why they dont trust,becz they know the product more than the Uncle sam.if not mistaken, i did read an article from sumwhere, the world's best imitator/copycat not china nor taiwan,is Omerica*. You gotta believes it,ppl claimed this wiv the evidence,facts,prove.

these copycat,stealed ppl's invention, rebuilt it,come out wiv their own brand.maybe name like Pineapple or Lappel lar,i dunno,jz realli cant give more respect to this angmo,and this are not the 1st trial,they do it randomly,oftenly, u might notice it sumday

these angmo ler,laugh at asian,looks cute,tiny,short,ugly,mata sepet,but now they race until head crack,jz becoz of asian,y?becz asian they dont spend ma laztime,asian love bank, so u can c many bank in malaysia,china,taiwan,hongkong,japan,u cant deny dat,the place which dominate by chinese, there are alots of city,shops and Bank of coz, u noe why,becoz chinese loves money more than any other races (joking,haha)

we save money in bank,dats y nw even economy crisis, we may not nid to pick in rubbish can,garbage collector station. we may not need sleep in garden,bus stand.

We proud to be Asian,althought we are tiny and short,thats why we dont need a huge car like Chefalo(cross logo,Made in USA) bcz we love the environments and pockets, plus,we save environment for next gen, not those hyprocrite who say wanna save the world, but then attack those country.

dont look down asian,and dont look down any others who different from our's culture,becoz they dont deserve tat,and you also dont preserve of this kind of rights, love every1 like love ur family
100millions ago, We all are family members,no matter u r african, angmo, chinese, malay......believe it, wan to know,u can watch discovery channel,haha~!!

Remember Brand like Toyota when you wan to buy a foreign car, reason? Toyota voted the top 10 car on earth, and believe to the jappo,their technic and history as one of the prestigious car builder. Remember Director/Advertiser like Yasmin Ahmad,y? she bring Malaysia to the Asia, to the world, with her humour and meaningful ads, with her true and strong malaysian culture film. Remember a leader like Tun Dr Mahathir, who dare to say no to America, dare to challenge Israel.

-steven-

Blogger-blog world

2009-02-24T15:31:00.002+08:00

Recently Streamyx became lousy and worsen and lack and etc etc etc..........
Sometimes not malaysian loves to complaint, is just shouldnt be how it be like now, WTH TM doing?at least inform us,email us,spread the new on paper,notice ler???dont have wor.anyhow, complaint doesnt work in here,u noe, i noe,we all knew...culture,haizz.

Back to the topic,sorry if i dragged u guys to Far Far away kingdom,i dont mean it. This final sem, the 1st ever sem i can feel i am studying in a right way,what i mean here is, the subject are so tough, for my level la,forgive me,cz i m average student only,haha!

Blog had replaced Diary which very frequent used by our's mum,dad,ah ma,ah kong,previously diary-ing,now blogging,thanks to rapid growth of cyberworld,love it or hate it,up to you. Blog has change human's life, but sumhow,it reflecting some human's nature.now blog even became one of the battlefield for politician,businessman,and socialites as well,interesting huh? =)

mentioned jz now,about the slow connection bout SREMIX,i cant facebook-ing,i cant check mail,i cant even seek info(bluff 1 act,seek porn =P) dats why i surf and peek at ppl's blogs.i figure somethg different out there:

1. some blogger use blog to "clone" another ideal self, they tend to be a perfect one,imagination 1,untrue 1,i found out,what they post,its like blog for themselve, making themself feel happier with that,which wat happened in blog,it maybe neva happen in their real life,but they fake it, attention seeking maybe?i dont know.

2.use blog as an information counter.they revealing their life to the whole world,sumtimes will telling ppl they are ok,fine,good,awesome,life are always good,marvellous,beware of them, sumtimes this kind of ppl,are allittle bit pitiful,they dun even noe who am them.

3.blogitout( blog it OUCH!) this kind of species blog for their own excitement, fire ppl,bombarding ppl,which they cant do it in real life,maybe is their best frens,bosses,or intimate partner.

4.blogmaniac,hahaha~ tis 1 i dunno how to explain,but u can check it out at
www.StevXXlim.net

5.Bloggerwannabe. this kind of ppl are trend follower,most of them are the kiasus, ppl do,they follow, fame,glory seeker, u might goo and c,via trying on sum blog writer from neighbour country.this kind of ppl exist in every corner, eww.......i hate it.

Anyway, this is just my personal view,i dont mean to critic or offending any1, i m human also,just write it for fun/self pleasure,dont sue me,hahaha

-steven-

50th

2009-02-20T21:09:00.001+08:00

my 50th blog achieve for today, what a meaningful number but with a meaningless blog.

i got alots of things,idea wanna post,jz cant simply write it out.

anyhow,i will be back very soon =)

Thoughts

2008-12-24T13:18:00.002+08:00

*hokkien

*kaliao da phor boon si ham sap eh......
Every men are WOMANIZER

*chabo cin cia suka wu lui lang,buei buei bo tao mo boon biao kin,lui sheng......
girls most favourite thing is money, no matter you are bald, or fatty, its ok, money come 1st

*da phor yi em si hua sim, yi dui kaliao eh lang boon siang eh......
Men are not disloyal, just the way he treating EVERYONE is EQUALY one

*chabo cin cia guai eh, si kong yi lang mai hurt tio ba lang ma,liao mo dui kaliao da phor ho lo
Girls are always decent 1, just they dont wanna hurt the others, so she treating all guys good lo

*da phor tao cia si eng guei ai yi eh relationship gao chabo peng you denng tam po
men betrayed is just because of he wanted to make his relationship be more lasting

*chabo gao beh ki yi eh shu,da bi cin gao eh ki pa lang eh shu
girls easily forgotten her's past, but they are good in memorizing others past

*holiao eh da phor hua jit pun cia zai chabo,tat jit bo siang eh chabo, palia eh, kui jit mai cho gang, liam cha bo
successful guys drive imported car fetch different ladies everyday, cheapskit's guy, mostly unemploys and always "occupied" with lady

*holiao eh chabo guan kaki bo guan ba lang
a perfect lady know self demand neither than demand from the others

recently just finish my finale, doing nothg at home,so brain still working ma,so got many time to do tis kind of stupid stuff lo.haha^^

but sadly,i do concern izzit globalization and postmodernism might request male to be more capable?i dont know, becoz i perceive globalization as "the weak 1 listen to the strong/dominate side" while postmodernism= "men are scumbag,moron,SOB...." in future,woman will conquer the world, and men are slave,trust karma,not me.

Kean Jung Fan's Club

2008-12-15T03:42:00.004+08:00

THIS IS MY GOOD FRIEND,HIS NAME IS KEAN JUNG,HE IS NOT AVAILABLE,BUT SUMTIMES SINGLE.

HE IS MY DAI GOR AS WELL,HE IS VERY GOOD GOOD GUY,HE NOT A BAD GUY

HE GOT MANY FRIEND,BOYFRIENDS LA,GIRLFRIENDS LA,GAY FRIENDS LA,BUT HE HAS ONLY 1 GIRLFRIEND

NOW I DECIDED CREATE A FANSCLUB BLOG FOR HIM,PEOPLE OUT THERE WHO KNOW HIM,PLEASE PROPOSE THE MOST SUITABLE NAME TO ME.

THE NAME WHICH BECOME THE NAME OF THE BLOG,WILL BAG A TRIP TO HATYAI WITH KEANJUNG,3DAYS 2 NITE,DONT MISS IT.

Homosapien's Battle, Male Vs Female

2008-12-06T05:08:00.003+08:00

Both genders starts with a S word:

Sexoholic VS. Shophaholic

you may find out that, the shopping mall are always crowded by OLs,chicks,Schoolgirls,heiress,
aunty,70% above are females, try to observe and see, majority of shopping mall loaded with woman's thingy,shopping bring pleasure,satisfaction,joyess to ladies,i would say shopping mall are the best invention made for female.

Trend leads party-ing cultures active among students life, and party doesnt means bday party
or bbq,gathering party,tats so outdated and not cool,they call party as CLUBING, (A.K.A as Hunting) heavy bass,extra-ordinary music, charming lights, smoky, alcohol effects, making those
guys goes wild, and most of the guy love clubbing, and at least,at least they have the tendercy to club, why club?cz club got lotsa of chicks, and there is the chance for them to make a "move", club=heaven for men (if ONS and pretty ,booty chicks provided, haha!)

Big Spender vs BIG SPENDER

For women, fashion, branded handbags, perfume, mask, body slimming treatment, diamond,
from my point of view,i perceive this all as their second life,lolz! ladies can live without a little supplementary, alittle bit of rest time, but they totally cannot stand with living with an ugly, fatty, out of maintanance ,conclusion, they rather die than lacking all of this.

Cars represents status, significancy of success, self-satisfaction, attraction (comparing with girls, guys need more atention,and they wants more atention), collection XD! Ignore the womaniser group, do you remember hotwheels?haha, boy i miss it lot,i believe many of guys own sum while in childhood time =) when grow up, sport cars, are the toys for them, among both genders, i think that guys who love cars realli beats woman in spending.

Egoism vs Kiasuism

no sexist issue here,not purposely mentioning this,but i did discover 2 of these elements can figure it in male and female, lets talk bout the kiasuism 1st. my frens keep telling me tis term belongs to citizens of neighbour country, like what Dr selva always says:there is always a BUT,haha, but i personally will put tis tag into chinese community,sorry ya peeps dont feel offended,i jz speak watcha i feel, and i dont think KIASUISM is a negative verb afterall, jz sumtimes i dont like it either =P Kiasuism may interprete in tis way, from wat i able to understand this, most of the girls have tis kind of mind, when come to academic stuff, u might notice it. So called play safe, follow instruction, do the nescesary thing, but when trying to do wat others able to do,for the sake of doing,is kiasuism. But tis attitude are good in sumway, dont you noe dat girls are good in planning and time management?

human's nature,historical pathway, cultural background, masculinity theory, opinion leaders, presidents and prime ministers are all males (neglect the hierachy system, most of the nation leaders got Kuku's) public perceptions, everyone thinks that, man are almighty. u say all these are rubbish, think back, all this points making guys gave birth with pride, honour, high-expectation, and maybe significant hope. Guys always have to get rid of the hard feeling, becoz of Egoism. guys love their fame,their name and air muka more than anythg, so dont try to embarasing guys in front of public, and someday u will found out Egoism can leads a ppl sucess in their life,and maybe another way round, Egoism turns them into public enemy.

i am so tired right now,i will continuing this after i wake up,haha....thanks for reading =)

-stvn-

My mission,my vision

2008-12-04T09:32:00.002+08:00

Okay okay,bluff enuf~!!i said this million times d,none of it realize,list down and refresh it ,recall it again...i m so lazy and slack~!!

talk bout financial management,i seriously nid to have a good control on my own

talk bout my diet plan,it was always postpone and delay and postpone

talk bout my life,believe me if i told u i m factory guard

talk bout myself,i did improve,but nth much,but i still learning,still exploring

my mission

*slim down in order to avoid embarassing myself

*SAVE MONEY FOR BETTER FUTURE (yaya,inspired by sum slogan,XP)

*stop complaining how sucks life will be,back to reality

my vision

*employ in shortest time after graduate

*add on self value for long term

*be a multi-tasking machine

i think i shud go and nap now, Adios~!!

p/s:lots of stupid thoughts,pls forgive me......

Before......After........

2008-12-04T09:08:00.004+08:00

Before.

After

I am freaking sad for my appearance right now~!!!!what turn me into 40yrs old mid uncle?!

No wonder i refuse to take any picture recent yrs,

No wonder all my attire became TIGHT after washed(blame la blame),

No wonder i hurted my knee always,

No wonder kids calling me uncle,

No wonder i can whacked whole tons of food,swallow it easily,

No wonder i dont give a damn how i look alike nw.

becoz i m ugly fuggy little old man with big tummy

becoz my body grow alot of fats

becoz i put on weight crazily vertically rapidly (FYI,87-72=??) in 2 and half yrs

becoz i m fat,i looks old,i m bald,and i m officially having my mid-age crisis nw

bcoz my stomach capicity no longer 80G,but extended to 160G

bcoz i m already looks terible,horible,extremely,tragically ugly,who cares?

i nid motivation

i nid medication

i nid determination

i nid self-evaluation

i nid DIET~!!!!

b4 its too late

b4 diseases lands me

b4 my fats level higher than blood cc

b4 i broke my legs(hand o watever ...)

b4 i lost all my hair.......

i think i need a nutritionist and psychologist for now......

i m so DEAD

4 Dec 2008

-steven-

Study week~!!

2008-12-01T15:42:00.005+08:00

stress ar......stress for study week,stress for no money
but study week are holidays for me,yamcha yamcha...hahaha

Inspiration...

2008-11-28T03:22:00.002+08:00

When i feel lonely,i feel i nid sumbody,it will always on midnite,include writing sum blog...
and this post is to conclude what i had learn so far in this 2 and a half yr,FYI,tis was my 2nd laz sem,hard feelings appear while b4 i wanna come over here,hard feelings again while tmr was the laz day for this short sem..

this sem i had learned:

-honesty

-obligation

-tolerance

-comitment

-maturity

-mentality differences

-reputation

-respect

-authority

-HUMBLE

to survive in this competive,cruel reality world,those are the element which can lead you to success in future,at least tis is wat i think,anyhow,i love HUMBLE tis term,i like it means i will try to practice it,in my view,without this element,u will neva gain any good experience and knowledge besides that

"KNOWLEDGE ARE THE WHOLE LIFE LEARNING"

got to go,tmr i will bring my humble to the class,nites~!! =D

A few meter away from industrial world.

2008-11-22T17:00:00.002+08:00

never notice that i am yr3 student now, u noe, time flies,and i m getting older...
when i was small, i always wish to grow faster,i want freedom,i dun wan obey tis and dat,
but now i m an adult d,how i wish i could turn back the time...cut the crap,out of topic d,haha

i was calculating the number of PR student from my schit simple,for my campus, there is no enrollment for yr1 anymore,switch to another place, counting from yr2, there will be 3 sems in the yr,there will be 3 batch of them,per batch count like 150 person ,so for yr2 student will be 450ppl there, add with 3yr senior, will be thousand of them...(i am 1 of them ==)

1 more sem i will go off,steps in the real working world,i was wondering,izzit my field require for so much ppl like us?even in academic i was hard to survive,how bout the reality world?i was in the dark,i cant c my future,the enviroment izzit over hectic for me?i dun think so....i think i will be out with 2 empty hands....i m afraid.

Big dream Vs Realistic,"Straight forward" and liar.

2008-11-21T18:54:00.003+08:00

I have a dream, to be the next Malaysia Prime Minister

I have a dream, to be the most famous human being on earth, i have a dream....

Realistic is cruel,u have a dream,then go dream ur own,dream on,my life carry on,

ur dream is kinda funny,and u still living with it,good dreamer huh?

Telling u r straight forward while every1 noe u love dick,u r sengek one, tot we all are idiot ke?!

i think liar are much more better than you,at least he wont tell u that " I AM STRAIGHT

FORWARD PERSON"....

see the differences between liar and honesty person?

I will Miss you.

2008-11-02T13:03:00.002+08:00

"want candy?ah gong give u money go n buy,but rmb when cross the road becareful ya..."

this sentences appear on my brain repeated times,the scene replay non-stop...

"come,ah gong bring you go catch fish,teach you how to catch fish..."

ah gong,ah zhen miss you,realli realli miss you....

hope you rest peacefully,you are always on my mind

with love,

Meaningful...

2008-11-02T12:53:00.002+08:00

老人安養院牆上發現的一篇文章
孩子！當你還很小的時候，我花了多時間，教你慢慢用湯匙、用筷子吃東西。教你繫鞋帶、扣扣子、溜滑梯、教你穿衣服、梳頭髮、擰鼻涕。這些和你在一起的點點滴滴，是多麼的令我懷念不已。所以，當我想不起來，接不上話時，請給我一點時間，等我一下，讓我再想一想……極可能最後連要說什麼，我也一併忘記。孩子！你忘記我們練習了好幾百回，才學的第一首娃娃歌嗎？是否還記得每天要我絞盡腦汁，去回答不知道你從哪冒出來问题的嗎？所以，當我重覆又重覆著老掉牙的故事，哼著我孩提時代的歌時，體諒我。讓我繼續沉醉在這些憶中吧！切望你，也能陪著我閒話家吧！孩子，現在我常忘了扣扣子、繫帶。吃飯時，會弄髒衣服，梳頭髮時還會不停的抖，不要催促我，要對我一點耐心和溫柔，只要有你在一起, 會有很多的溫暖湧上心頭。孩子！如今，我的腳站也站不穩，走也走不動。所以，請你緊緊的握著我的手，陪著我，慢慢的。就像當年一樣，我帶著你一步一步地走。若為人子女也不懂得如何體諒他們，那他們便只能於痛苦中渡過餘生，黑暗中逝去....

Nov 2,2008,sunday.

ah gong leave us forever in his dream,peacefully,without any sickness,ah gong,sorry that i am not able to go back see you immediately,i noe u understand us,always.

ah gong,i will never forget you and ah ma,childhood time,gave me the warmest hand,all you love
sayang-ing your grandchildren,and what i can do for u nothg much.

ah gong,i miss you,miss da time we spend togetha,i think ah ma now waiting you in another world,u might re-unite with her nw.

ah gong,sorry that i unable to be a filial grandchildren,but u r Remembered always

WC,with love.

Yesterday......

2008-10-28T13:48:00.002+08:00

Yesterday,all my sorrow seems so far away........
Oh i believe in yesterday.......
-Beetles-

Suddenly so afraid of death,suddenly dunno who i am

Suddenly felt dat i achieve nothing in my life

Suddenly i couldnt trace back the determination i had before

Suddenly i so lost....

I am still living in yesterday,i m a human being that dont like reality,but yet,force to accept it

I am still hoping life wasnt dat bored,am i not dat fuggy anymore

I am still the person which never change from pass 20yrs ago....

what i want?what have i did?did i satisfy with the life i had now?

The answer is NO!!

I WANT TO CHANGE,CHANGE MYSELF......

Kaki Ponteng

2008-10-28T13:37:00.002+08:00

let say back in highsch time,i can confirm that i will sacked by sch due to frequent ponteng class(skip class),today,are 4 (or5) classes i skipped d...i feel so guilt,i m so slack...

this sem have only 7weeks,i dun think i shud ponteng anymore:
3class lecture PR role model
2class lecture Planning and management
2class tutorial Planning and management

I Am FXXKING useless Slacker,pharmacy got any remedy to cure me??
tell me then.....

If i can.....

2008-10-28T03:05:00.002+08:00

I wish that karma does exist,so that, the people who guilt,shall punish by god

I wish that God does exist,so that,he will makes this world more balance

I wish that i always wish that the reality wasnt the thg i nid to go thru....

I wish that,u will meet sum1 dat realli can guide to th real pathway....

I wish that,forgiveness never lands u!!!

Santini.

2008-10-28T02:39:00.002+08:00

now i realize that the power of alcohol,my phone also affected,lolz....

the pics took when relaxing in Santini,act is Miss Sandra big day,her's birthday
no way lo,noe la,i m not drinker,have to "eng xiu" also.hahaha.....

soon will update more pics..stay tuned =D

Entertainers??

2008-10-26T18:26:00.002+08:00

watching match of the century with LP and KH,discussing stg interesting,might be sumthing cathcy in ur life as well,stg dat u might meet sumday,haha...

LP talk bout the stuff he read on forum,dunno which forum la,but stg dat kinda yellowish(18SX)
about ENTERTAINING ur client 1,suddenly felt dat,how good to be a client's entertainer..but suddenly question appears here....

KH:how to handle a homie?and he/she is ur biggest client in ur company?
LP:haha,tough,tough.....

STVN:let u choose la,a man with a pen,or raw walking porkchop?

KH,LP,SK whoever yamcha-ing there,stunned,and laughing crazily.....

guys,who will u choose?homie or smelly fei phor??u decided =D

Lamps....

2008-10-23T00:44:00.005+08:00

i dun really do research on this kind stuff before,do snap sum frm Ikea while previous visit,wanna shared my thoughts and kept my inspiration with write it down.

i love ikea's designers art work,it juz simply nice and easy,i wondering how they gain sum many creativity,wat swedish consume in their daily life?wat they do?jz curious,lolz....

Creativity are sumthg recognise by everyone,not urself,suggestion is to suggest,not making thgs become complicated,anyhow,the lamps are the best invention from Edison,without lamp,bulb,wat generates ur idea while the world is in darkness?can anyone tell me dat?

Impulsive Part II

2008-10-23T00:29:00.002+08:00

PRETTY?SEXY?NICE BODY FIGURE?always heard from my frens,MR K.J giving high compliments to Thai girls,i found 1,charming,mature beauty type,now i started agree what he told us previously,to be frank,he not only good fren of my,plus,indirectly,he is a B example for me(B=???)haha,u guess wats dat la....tutor as well...he is knowledgeble?not realli,but he is experienced,veteran,is he a genius?nope,but he can pass the test without study,he learn stg which couldnt found in book....(HOW TO WIN GIRL'SSSS HEART IN 2HRS),ya,no kidding...respect tak?haha

I dun think the pic does deal with wat i wrote now,but when i c the pics,i do feel sumthg...erm hormone stuff la,haha..today when one my fren told me his fren pregnant,i started think of the Thai girl,KJ as well,was wondering how old his child now...hahaha(hope he wont read my blog)
guys out there,pls becareful,wear HELMET when u wanna WORK,so u wont have to hit and run,u will not become ppl's parents in early of age,guys are visual animal,brain grow lower body,so i conclude dat,MAN ARE ALWAYS IMPULSIVE....haha

Impulsive....leads failure

2008-10-23T00:14:00.002+08:00

what i have done while now is the 2nd week of short sem?notify that yr3 s2 is quite rush and the schedule packed like hell,i m still not able to pick up myself to construct my assignments, busy
for DOTA,i am shamed to tell u dat,i busy playing tis game,i am not addicted,but not givin up to play cz wanna win my roomate,seems childish ya,yeah,kiddo stuff...haha...

even play game,i do using my brain power,twist,squeeze,and sumtimes i will figure out my weaknesses in game,dats my sub-conscious....i realli dat,i am so furious,so impulsive,and sumtimes hatred and vengeane,tat was so negative,i dint improve any while i train myself thru tis game,wat i mean is,my patient become lesser,am my attitude problem still there.....

SO SAD......i dunno wat can save me,wat can help me,human borned to be learn,as in forever,u will neva see the end of knowledge,there is sumthing in my mind.clutches my voice of heart too,alway wish that,it will come to me again,till the very forever,before that,i mz prepared myself,with changing my fxxking attitude,before the greater challenge arrive....frens,ARE YOU REady??

This Era, That Era....

2008-10-16T18:20:00.003+08:00

"Check, check....Yr 2008, started counting down for the incoming 2009..." u may thought i calculate sum waiting event or sum1else important made for me...bday...nope, u guys misunderstanding, frankly speaking, ppl who know me well,i will not giv a damn on time stuff, dats y,my time management are very un-organise..this sound true for me...

no other plan or wat la,dat day chating wiv a net fren,i jz realized in reality world,there are still such thg happens,u noe wat? "blind date"...opssi...not blind date,but blind marriage..swt la wei...Ripley aye?-believe it or not..hahaha...but i think is was real..cz i trust wat the person told me.

she told me dat,she will leave MY end of this yr,taiwan next station,why?cz she will marridge wiv a guy she doesnt see b4,and directed by her grandma...gosh..pls la..nowadays still got tis kind of thgs 1 meh??i realli feel speechless...

i always glad i born in 21th century,for i dunnid to bear many thg went thru by my great grand parents,in fact,sum place still practise this kind of wat we call it "old law"..no other thg,i can onli pray for her,gain back her's freedom ASAP....cz she told me,she will wish to re-incarnation ....sad huh?

I will pray for you...AT
-Steven-

Where am I now...

2008-10-15T03:15:00.002+08:00

Midnite 3am are alwaYs the best time for me to blog,while surfing net,viewing frenster,i am doin nonsense as well, and my writing mood will come this moment...

sorry for not update my blog,not i am lazy,but everytime when i wanna write down my daily life,somethg come across in my mind,i had to busy for some other urgent stuff,haha....(excuses)

My blog will under construction,due to previous blog kinda emo,i am thinking of re-create new blog....i wish to start a new begining, a new milestone for myself

sleepy,tml 8am class,chaoz~! ^^

Alittle bit pieces of Yr3 Sem1

2008-08-14T19:09:00.002+08:00

Come to week12 officially,and unconsciously,dude,nw I AM YEAR3 student d,gosh~meaning that i m going to graduate soon....sob sob T__T sad for i couldnt foolin wiv my frens,sad for i couldnt being immature,sad for i m gonna join this cruel world.......sad!Sad!SAD~!!!

But after yell out,i still nid to move on,wat to do?malaysia is like this 1,after u complaint everythg u feel unsatisfy,but u still have to continue,resume...y?tis is life~~man....a little bit summary about my Yr3 sem1...written this down as a references la,maybe future i will review my own blog again wat had i done ler?who noes?

getting mad d,talking to myself,dunno learn this frm who...lolz~!!aiya,human being mar,when sumthg not good happen,they will blame u,blame me,blame god,blame ah hua,blame ah beng,but they will not blame themself,blame la blame,eventually u will become assylum permanent client,or i bring u go Tanjung Rambutan wan?

this sem realli killing me,tons of work,waving like tsunami,then come class politic katrina again ler?dunno wat will strikes next,but i guess, "The tale of God" will come...aih,after this sem,campaign anymore...more over to come la....

but i do enjoy for this sem,using this sem as the benchmark for me,heading to betta direction, i wanna change,i wan to achieve wat i wan,run, fatboy,run~!!

Start over again,i wan to resurrection

2008-08-13T16:14:00.002+08:00

i have to say thank you to Utar,Bachelor Degree of Communications, Year3 Sem1, it is over whelm,tiring,hectic,dramatic semester for everyone of us, seriously,i dint study well for previous sem, this is the consequences, my basic are dat weak,how much effort i put in now,it is too late, is time to wake up~~MR ANG!!

forgotten that i have my own blog,so long time i neva visit and update it,this my feeling station, so dusty and quiet ever since i was busying T with my mates,gossiping, and project of coz(i dint do alot la actually,haha,thanks to my capable group member)

finally the second last presentation ends today,burden gone as well,dats y i able to drop a blog here,and change the background too,dull color aye?haha~i like la.....sumtimes life are so difficult,human being like to makes life complicates,i jz wonder,convincing ur frens to trust u wiv lies,izzit worth?ready for the bearing the consequences?thank u DR Selva,you realli a good lecturer who tell me what is SELF PERCEPTION...anyhow,this thing mz reduce,in order to success in future

-Achievement build with the foundation of determination, only loser seek for EXCUSES-

chaoz~soon will post another new 1 takecare my dear reader =)

My Confession Part 1

2008-07-01T00:07:00.002+08:00

Dear God,

i realli dont know either Mother mary listen to me,or jesus,allah or guan yin doin that.
coz i am none religious believer,but at this moment,i juz wanna confess, waiting for judgement.
altot i am not urs follower,but god always say we have to love everyone close to us,did u lend me
ur hand god?did u hold me tight?did u guide me?did u give me any signal?did u....?

what goes around,comes around,i am so ashamed admit i am good guy while facing you,but at least, i am not a bad guy,unable to be a bad guy,but why always giving those fake chances?if what happens to me is karma,i think dat is more than enuf d rite?u wanna punish me,bring it on in once,slam me on the floor straight,dun tearing my heart,splash salt on my wound,i cant take it anymore.....sorry,this not complaining,but ....jz a few words for u,my god.

Here we go...
1st,what i done from begining,i realli wanna help him and her,i am juz a people wanna help,not so evil try to jeopardy anyone.

2nd,i wil not treat any of mine frens badly unless they are not my fren,and i dunnid any reason to treat my good,as long as they good to me,i will do the same thg,i am not so motive harmful guy.

3rd,all these while i helping my frens,built bridge for them,oh ya,sumtimes i am kepo la,but i jz wanna help onli,but why in the end,u refuse to help me?tell me can?

4th,i swear to u all,i neva do anythg which is betray anyone else,nothg undertable,nothg evil...

Dear god,let say u figure what i confess to u,got any lie content there,pls erase my life ,destroy my life too,coz for now,i am so sad for,ppl feel dat i am sum kind of Hypocrite.....

God,if u heard,pls help me~!!

FooD H3@V3N

2008-06-28T13:46:00.015+08:00

i am so lazy to write this blog now,since i upload the pics d....argh...i still lazy to tell u guys wat is dat....anyhow...this all are made in Penang

To be continue..... XD

a full compliment for a good father

2008-06-16T20:48:00.002+08:00

hope is neva too late to write this blog, recently too busy, until i miss my bed so much
ya,true...and miss my dad as well,i admit,for the very 1st time..me and my dad,not so close to each others, i always tell myself tat, this is the way how chinese/oriental communicate with they own children,my dad is a person who wordless person with his sons.

my pa(daddy), was a very particular guy with his principles
my pa,was a very good family guy
my pa,always try his best to cheer my ma,and other family member
my pa........i wish that i able to hold his hand while he nids me
i hope tat,i can acc him to go everywhere...
ah pa,u and ah ma's love tat u gave to us,i will neva able to repay
ah pa,when i was small,u r the 1 who teach me how to walk,u hold me tiny hand, teach me with patient,one day,when the time u nids me,i wish i could be the 1 who giv u all my loves
ah pa,thanks for everythg,thank u~!!
i love you,ah pa~

i love you mama

2008-05-06T04:23:00.003+08:00

i am 22,ya, 22....old enuf to own myself a family.career.anythg,everythg,
but without u,i am nothg.i have nth.i wont be anythg,
u raise me up, without hoping repay.return,
u raise me up,witout complaint,without doubtful....

wat i do,u will onli comment it,advice, but supportive always
wat i done.u will neva over punish,and sumhow will put blame to urself
my destiny belongs to myself, but ur destiny.u exchange it with our's,

u sacrifice everythg of urs,to help us achieve the dream
u sacrifice ur whole life to let us to be more comfort
For the every litle thg u do,for us,are the best thg compare with any
For the everythg u do,at this moment,i only able to say thank you

I m sorry for being rebellious once.
I m sorry for being such a dissapointment to u once.
I m sorry that i m not able to make u proud of me.
I m sorry that i never tell u dat i love u.

with this coming mothers day,i have nothg for u mummy,but sum promises to realize in future
Mum,i love you u,although is not as much as the love dat u giving to me
Mum,i love you,for the sacrifice u had made all this years
I almost drop my tears while typing this post,but the burden carry by you,i will neva able repay,
but mum,i will try to give u the best i can, and i wanna thank you dat being
THE GREATEST MUM OF MINE!

breathless.....i m letting go

2008-05-03T13:45:00.000+08:00

Midnite....tea making me sleepless or my lousy old fashioned celeron processor low ram brain busying arranging old files in my mind(yaya,i noe i m long winded,but tis is how i feel now) seriously, i m not rush for any assignment or any exam like my frens do,for tis moment, i onli lepak,sleep eat,pee....play,sing,dream, pathetically, it was like a beggar style now, baggar de pon,told by my hsemate CM...i m losing my way,i m telling dat, i m LOST~!!
2 weeks later,since that day,everythg had change, sumhow like opposition smash down BN, i neva feel tis b4, neva ever....i drink syrup ,i taste bitter, i drink beer,i taste da pain,the pain on my heart. trying my best licking my wound hope dat will turn into scar as soon posible, taking this chance, i wanna thank to my frens who always foolin with me,they help me alot while i nid ppl most, adios~
no more contact with each others, no more cares and concerns, no more ......for me,once u r my major concern, i breath thru you, i breath becoz of u, do u noe dat? everytime i passed by the place we met previous moment, the scene recall again, avoid and ignorance memory recall choosen by me, once i think dat u were with me, always stay with me, once, u r my everythg, do u noe dat?
nowsadays, i hardly find my heartbeat, u r da person who raise da tempo, i hardly to see color, without u,my world was grey, crystal reminds me u r still stay inside my heart, if 2 years are the duration u spent as a companion of mine, i willing exchange with my everythg, to turn back time again, i miss u,i miss ur smile, i miss ur voice...u noe dat?u will neva noe hows i feel, and i choose to let go...free myself, quit to be ur burden, but when the day i were gone, i will turn into wind, follow wherever u are, when u nids me,i will always be with u

urs faithfully,
Stvnwen WC

Top of the cloud,we was there dat day

2008-04-30T20:32:00.000+08:00

For me i dun like to travel the same place,or the place dat u can go anytime cz its kinda bored, seriously,i love to travel,wat i mean here is,travel at other countries,like europe,south east asia,not malaysia la sorry, XD this time to genting again...hohoho,lame la...zzz,but since got free lunch,free bus services plus maid(kakaak,YCF sure will kill me,sorry lo maria)

ok, this will be mine 1st photo insertion for blog:

okies,i noe i looks dump,hahahaha........dat day was a special trip for me, looking forward coming one....

The Phenomenon

2008-04-27T04:30:00.000+08:00

DO you ever wish to flying high, do you hope that you are some body? do you wish to be in the hall of fame?
Dat day when we was chit chating sumthing deal to IQ and EQ,my fren mention dat, every menthods use to train us,is train our's right brain...ok,sum question here,i jz wanna noe,let say,we have left and right brain,y human train the right brain onli?mayb 1 of the reason is,ppl who rules this world,most of them are right handed,i mean our's ancient..tis is my view la,no scientific prove 1,hahaha.....

i dint really go do research dat left and right brain are for wat function,but i believe dat,left brain are onli grow on those genius...as i noe,left brain are the level storage for ur creativity,idea...stg dat u will neva learn frm the books..so there is sumthg deal with born leader...i was so addicted to youtube ever since b4 election,stick wiv those party leader's speech,i strongly believe dat, Anwar is a born politician...i tell myself,he will be the major study if i pursue my sociology....Anwar Ibrahim is 1 of The Phenomenon...why i say so...u can c,where he go,there is thousands of audience will sit down,and listen to wat he presenting(tis is the power of Persuasion), Anwar = PKR...phenomenon...

i got sum frens,they are realli born in this kind of package,haha,sorry,for i describe u all like sum goodies,forgive me..this ppl,they have their own special ability,u will c dat,they able to blend into ppl's place, and they able to be the leader among bunch of mon-keys,u have no idea dat how good is their well adaption.

wat they speak,ppl will listen,opinion leader, this is Phenomenon
wat they do,ppl will do,ppl support, this is phenomenon
where they are,there will be a bunch of die hard mates with them,this is phenomenon
wat they do,was an impact,this is phenomenon...everyone hoping they are special one,ya,mayb, u r the onli on earth,let say,u wannabe the next biatch blogger ,attention seeker, do u qualify for dat?if u wanna be the next bill gates,abramovic,cantona,warren buffet,napolean...jz think again,do u qualify for tat? i always believe in Born Leader...try to refer back three kingdom,u might trace sum =)

Blanko.......recent M3

2008-04-27T04:13:00.001+08:00

back at pj last monday,ss2 my new territories,hahaha,joking,(tis sentences quote from KJ)*i love my gangs man....especially my yamcha gang,my futsal mates,my housemate, and the best thg is,all of them love ss2,haha~seriously,i m not blogger,nor good writter,i admit....i blog for syok,but now blog becoz of i feel dat i got social responsibility to blog more,lolz~ social responsible wor~wth?!i mean dat sumtimes i really got no where to express my feelins, my emotions,i choose to blog,and i blog for pleasure....i read sum frens blog,they blog like jz wanna hide themself with sum stones, this is funny wei..jz blog wat u like la,dun worry la,Isa wont belanja u curry rice 1...sumtimes they blog to bluff,bluff dat they so enjoy....gosh,another poor species,i call them Gen Com,generation of computer..this bunch of fellas, onli found themself in internet world,they connecting with frens via msn(the frens which they dint meet b4), they post blog ,they blog like difren ppl,in the sense of they are try to re-invent themself thru blog..swt ler =='

Juz pass up my report laz wed,seems like i learn nth frm my internship compare wiv mah mates,they are busy,but they are learning as well...me?learn how to snake(sneak),and now gain weight like hell....sob sob~ nowsadays, lepak wiv my tea mate always,i damn enjoy this good moment,boost my mood up...orelse,i might bored till grow spider web in hometown....freaking lonely there,haiz haiz.....went steambot wiv AV frens...wow.happening wiv KC ,haha....dat day,i eat alot of chicken wings,i dun like steambot,so go kacao ppl who sitting bsides me,hahaha,dun angry ya,dear fren...sumtimes jz wana entertain u all.....my fren told me to shorten the blog,said i got many bullshit,haha,i felt it too,so i will keep posting often,plus,short it out,i promise,ok la,gtg....ciaoz~!!ja monsiuer =)

punishment...

2008-04-17T18:02:00.000+08:00

Lets imagine dat you lost ur handphone,or out of service for 2-3 days,how does you feel?
How bout,you laptop stolen,ur internet server broke down,thunder strikes ur pc again,wats next?
u will feel down,nth to do,lost ur handphone,like soul out,like u jz misses ur lover dat much,like piece of ur heart taken away,did u?
no internet,like end of day .......wats ur opinion on this kind of human?if u wanna torture or punish nowsadays teenagers,nid no other thgs,ban hp,ban tv,ban pc...dats all...haha~!

Proudly Present by.................Jason Mraz~

2008-03-28T19:58:00.000+08:00

"Your Beautiful,your beautiful is true~"...ok,gotcha,is James Blunt......Tis is love song?for me,is jz more alike sad song,hurt song,sum speak out song pity guys who always"i saw ur face,in the crowding place,and i dunno wat to do,i will neva be with you........#"sad huh?of coz~!!when u r rejected,break-up,pls,not james blunt,pls not Leona Lewis....cut you indeep,slice ur heart into pieces,belief it...

meet tons of problemo recently,damn suffer...no way lo,actually i also i suffer for wat,hahaha,mayb ppl say i have perriod like laddies wor,who knows?!jkjk =P Many western artiste,musician good in club music,jazz,country rocks,emo song,sad songs...good songs umh...not important for dat,but i truly reco1 ppl to guys out there,Try Jason Mraz ........

a composer,an equiqment decides singer's image,but i truly belief dat,da singer's voice determine the characteristic of certain songs,jason mraz are the singer who play their song wiv their soul,sing the song wiv their heart,enrich the song wiv their voice..jason mraz are 1 of the best guitarist,becoz he able make a good song wiv onli guitar and his good voice...Trust me,he is the FALLEN ANGEL FROM MUSIC HEAVEN...tak try tak tau wei~

speechless.....

2008-03-25T21:04:00.000+08:00

Always rejected by sum1 u think she/he is special in ur life-Speechless

Always scold by ur boss/important company guest-Speechless

Always stepped by people who talk more than work one-Speechless

Always kicked by ppl to here and there,up and down-Speechless

Always dont know the meaning of living-THE MOST SPEECHLESS THGS TO MYSELF~!!!!

Today's Headline:Public Relations Field

2008-03-22T10:46:00.000+08:00

I Still rmb Yr1 Sem1, the question given by Mr G.V Nair,he is our FAS lecturer,advisor,consultant...sumtimes slightly more an old frens who always willing shared his experience,his knowledge with us,without any selfish mind,doubt...sorry for the intro and forgotten the question threw by Mr G,hahaha....recalling....hmm,dat day was friday,Mass com class,he ask whole class:so,young man,why PR,and why UTAR?when ur relatives ask u,wat is PR,how you answer?
(chuckles)gosh~hit my button,absolutely~i neva consider or take chance to know tis thg indeep,in my mind,jz wanna resume my studies..Mr G helps me to re-generate my spider webby brain..yalah,y PR?i dun even know wat is PR,now i am pursuing Mass com majoring in PR,tis is ridiculous~!human being,the most basic thg u mz know wat are u doin,then you only able to chase ur dream,and know who you are..am i?
i think and think and think....think think think~still dont know the main reason i choose this,tis unknown pathway,lead me to sumwhere i dunno,anyhow...PR are sumthg nonid to study,but u nid to understands it well,very well....
Let say,PR is about philosophys,its about human phychology,its about communications,its about master minded game,its about you daily life,agree my frens?i not sure,but trust me,in future,nt only ladies welcome in this huge potential field,male too..looking forward higher achievement?PR field are sumthing makes u see manythgs u will not experience b4,sumthg which give chance to celebrities to resurection,re-packaging,re-born...i say,celeb need PR,a personal 1...
in this,we are always playing the rules to assist...without us,this world wont dat happening,believe it.....we are PR-Plan and Rules~!

Love Is not tat simple

2008-03-19T18:31:00.000+08:00

Most of chinese Pop music lovers for sure they noe bout song frm david tao-Love is simple
Love is Simple?i dont think love is simple,i see love form few basic level,which is Good Impression to each other->know each better->suitable->likes->Love.......this are more broad explaination, let say we look in more detail,still alot alot alot.....i dunno it more,becoz i neva try it,hahaha~!
KJ always tell me:love is passion ,sumtimes i m not very agree,love actually needs patient,but not passion, love which sparks via passion,normally will ends will passion 2-becoz of impulsive,or 2 lonely heart hooks togetha,with the situation of not know each other well,this call love?everlasting?still nid more prove on it....passion will makes woman pregnant,makes man regret of the passion...rite?
Love actually are dificult,when gals choose the wrong 1,they will insist to stay,waiting for change,does wind of change blow in love world?i m not sure,but hor,u wish guy to change,stay loyal,dun be silly,the dificultcy are slight to force guy to lie again,adidas slogan doesnt work anymore,wan mens to stay loyal,this is imposible~!!guys prefer make love,not in love...rmb it
when gals meet wiv Geeks,Weirdo,mayb Shrek(ugly 1...sorry but no offence,i m shrek in fact) and this gang of poor little thg,they are loyal,but gals wont love them,no matter how loyal,how good,how caring they are.....do,to them,fair?i dunno,but at least,love are not simple to them,hahaha.....
Love is about comitment,dats y,guys are lovely,lovable,they do comitment to all gals he likes,dun trust when guys tell tat he loves you,ops sorry,mayb for dat moment they love u,then next minute,u wait n c la ya...lolz~!to geeko,freako,weako,shrek....when u believe fairy tales still exist,u can go for ur miss cinderella,miss snow white,but rmb or not, this pretty sweet miss will still good with u "treat u like bestfren" rmb,1 day,when prince charming and brave knight come to them,they will kick u into drain,without any appreciation at all...so dun bang wall...wake up,and looking for the 1 for u =) cheers~!!

i know...dat heaven knows

2008-03-17T22:16:00.000+08:00

My fren always remind me about this chinese term "lie ur own,lie others" so when u wanna tell lies,pls makesure u lie to urself 1st,agree?But frankly speaking,me myself practise this always,this is phychological matter some how,we call it,self consolation.....make urself feel better =)
Meet couples of problem recently,it makes me feel dat religious,culture background,education are not able to manipulate or erase human's evil selfish way,this is most worst thg i see in human being...why we call god as god,why people idolise Jesus, Mother Mary,Mother Theresa,Evita, and maybe Roberto Baggio (tis ex-italian footballer own a fund), this bunch of ppl,they are sort like angel,they shared their love,their wealth mayb health with other ppl who dun have any connection with them,so if human who are not selfish,we greet them God....
I understand dat sumtimes,when u lie to urself,will reduce level of guiltiness.but think back,why must to sabo,jeopardize ppl onli able to makes u look outstanding,why?becoz u noe dat,u r not good,u nid sumthg to put u high,pls.....dun ever create conflict,becoz,i believe in Karma~!!
To me,knife,guns,sword are not hurting anymore,the most killing weapon is MOUTH...u can spoilt sum1else reputation with ur bloody mouth,sorry to say dat,but sumtimes,WORDS are the most danger thg amongs human...
When i write this blog,many thgs i questioned myself,am i always doing the right thg?did i do sum big mistake?do i hurt sum1 self wiv my mouth?i admit...i do,becoz at least by this moment,i cant lie myself,subconscious not letting me to do dat...think be4 action,beware of words,dun miss use the ability given by god,orelse will become Mute for next life,hahaha~!
(god,pls forgive me ya...i will remind myself be good abit,kekeke~!)

About internship......

2008-03-16T13:42:00.000+08:00

Wendy Teng marriage to Murdoch ....eh eh eh,stop....hold on,wazzup doin with Mr Murdoch and Wendy?wrong posting ke?nah....haha,not at all....Wendy was serve under Murdoch when she use to be intern previously,and then Murdoch attract to by her's unique oriental way,the Boss date her,dine with her,finally sleep with her,haha~!!sorry sorry,mayb i m rude in some way,but pls,forgive me =P wat i mean here is marriage to him..Respect to Murdoch and Wendy Teng at the same time,u noe wat?Murdoch and wendy,are totally difren culture,both from difren world,west VS east,influential VS independent,old VS young,Male VS Female..LOLX~!of coz la...but i found out similiarity between they both,ambitious~ why?i feel that from the very beginning Wendy start intern at Murdoch Media empire,there is somethg in her mind,really impressive inspiration to all ladies...

For my PR frens who still internship like me,keep on hard work,i feel dat i learn nth for my internship but attitude,the thing i wanted to train myself long long time ago,i dun feel dat knowledge are the only key lead u to the pathway of success,but is attitude decides ur achievement,attitude help u excel...many artiste are talent,are shine,are outstanding,are flamboyant,but ..did u guys realize,most of artiste look alike beggar,messy,lazy,and difren of coz...sum of them might famous after die..(most of artiste like dat,haha)

1 more month,internship will comes to end.....take a long deep breath,i m hoping new breeze when return to campus...wish to see u all again my mates =)

Left or Right?Middle ......

2008-03-14T20:54:00.000+08:00

recently got so many result reveals...election la,SPM,STPM....
being thru STPM n SPM be4...i am such a failure,bigest blunder on earth

i admit,none A for my both gov general exam...call me loser then..haha~

Today flip over newspaper,its all about the excellent of sch academy,i am doubt bout izzit academy result equals today student's quality and attitude? those who bag 10 or 20 A do they realli clever or just a hard working reading machine...but still nid to salutes them,bcoz they realli put alots of effort in it,but why when reporters interview them,they will answer"i am not clever actually,and i dun like to read text book at all,i onli do "allitle" revision when comes to final exam".... "......"i m speechless,these ppl ate too much humble pie or they are hyprocrite?hahaha,dunno

when result was out, there is onli few face expression, cry, smile, hesitate.....sum ppl cry becoz they score, sum ppl cry becoz they feel dat this result not belongs to them,sum ppl cry instead of ppl crying....i still rmb the time i take my result,i was stunned by the result paper, the reality always cruel...to me....it nails me for maybe 3 or 4mins,my mind was empty, palm sweat, tragic ya?hahaha~!tis is how i feel...anyway,in our life,at sum times,we nid to do sum realli big decision for our own...i go thru tis dillema be4...due to my "good" result, i was doubt dat i able to study or not,but i dun wish to go working in this age,i started regret....becoz of wanna make my own desicion for very 1st time, we runaway from people for 2days, shut off my hp....cant eat cant sleep...haih...bad experience act,haha....

in malaysia, i feel dat we nid a piece or certs more than anythg,no matter how good u r,how aplicable,aligible,capable,invincible,imposible.....u still will always question by ur boss" can i have ur academic certs"....certs is everythg....ppl who work,they wan to study ,ppl who study, they wan to work...why human always so controversial 1 huh??hahaha.....

sum ppl choose to work, they feel dat working ex more important,sum ppl persuade higher edu,wishing better future of coz,but i feel dat,to all my frens,i feel dat in future,when we go into reality world,i will choose a middle road for my own,work fulltime,study partime, so dat my life wont waste like dat onli...my fren told me be4, if human able to live until 60 onli,now i had spend my 1/3 of my lifetime d~!!but i still searching the value of living...hahaha!

for those politician who lose in the compete,wish tat u all can learn frm mistake, no matter tat u r from left or right, juz choose a middle pathway to keep on moving....means dun overprotected or over react to our's government and citizens...human are the most special spesies on earth,so another 5 yrs...left will becoz right,right will becoz left.....jz wait n c =)

Driving behaviors= Man's attitude

2008-03-02T15:43:00.000+08:00

Rmb dat People told me b4:when a guy driving,pls dont teach him how to drive or even alert him,he is rather accident more than adviced...Man drive with dignity,not with their mind~!
Haha,ridiculous isnt it?but its true,i agree,me too...impulsive 1, =P
One more thing,gurls out there,if u wanna understand ur boyfren or ur prey(sorry,haha,ur target i mean) or male playmate, observe how they drive,not their skill,but behavior,their action...their face impression.

Most of ah gua(sissy) drive damn slow,slow but not safe,when they bang something,sure will blame on ppl's fault...arh,biasa la,ah gua rules ma'hahaha~! this kind of species if gurls u think dat they are secure,they caring,they are sweet, here is my advice...dun treat them like your sista,maybe the time when they "bbf" with you,taking advantage on u,u also doesnt noe...ah gua meant it ok~!not point to every of them la,but i saw some.....they are caring bcoz they want to conquer you,they come wiv motive,beware it

2ndly, the male who drive like mad dog,i feel tis kind of ppl will more close to ego,high self esteem people.try and observe on the road,guys love to cut que,speeding....they hate ppl overhead them,they hate ppl lead them,they hate ppl faster than them...beware of this gang of human,they born in leader,wild and maybe playboy form...they like to being challenge,and they are able to challenge...normally,they prefer girl's friend more than girlfren....number decides the level of their own,self evaluation too....

3rd, the shuboon specko(modest look spec guy)...in tis category,split into three types, the geek,the faker and the duo....normally,glasses makes ppl looks soft,literal,gentle...for the geek,there are still major represents of shuboon,sumtimes we feel dat ppl who wear spec=good guy...geek are good,becoz they will neva hurt any1,they love books...and they onli in love wiv book ^^ the faker pula.....nonid tell anymore lo...this kind of ppl "wolf under sheep's fur", they more to the predator type,hunting stg,using their "mr nice guy" look hunt down their prey,ha.....actually their are duo 2..haha,dwi-personality..u can see they will soft to the big bully,soft to ppl they unable to handle,but not stand up for reason,always stand up for their own..they drove like tiger when infront of kancil,jeolous bout bmw owner..this kind of driver changing permanetly...still need long term observation..hahaha

will update tis soon when i found another type of species.....

Man N Women

2008-02-24T02:28:00.000+08:00

Human are Special,because human have emotion,human can think,human know what is love....
Human are Special,because human rules the world,they judge between good and bad....
Human are special,because they are who wanna balance this world with their own ability....

Human dunno dat they are fooling people,fooling their own......
Human always think they are stand at the right spot,instead of ppl who deny their thoughts,these ppl are traitors
Human are the 1 who destroying this beautiful earth...and they still tot they are saving it...

Gals always doing same mistake when they are in love,in love with some who doesnt in love with them.....

guys always want to show his herotic to the world, gave their love to feel gals at the same time....
and never learn frm mistake......

Love are woman's everythings, but Woman are Man's sumthg....
girls treat their boyfren/husband whole hearted....
guys treat their girlfrens/lovers whole hearted,treat wife good is jz a social responsibility

Ladies biggest mistake is fall in love to the wrong guy
Gentlemen biggest mistake is affair revealed

HUMAN.......hahaha.....beware of human....they will be sheep today,tomorrow when u look again,they might be wolf ......

Goodbye My Lover~

2008-02-24T01:54:00.000+08:00

"I knew that i loved you before i met you"
tis is the 1st phrase the guy tell the girl......after they went for few times
The gal stay silent but return a polite and sweet smile to the guy, it was the sweetest smile ever to the guy....

"You are Beautiful...." the guy commited his feeling to the gal
"I wanna be with you" the guy talk again.....this time, the gal still not answering and respond to the confession...He is confusing nw....The guy are insensitive,the girl are giving chances to the guy to ask her to be his girlfren...

"you are so stupid...." ,"yalah,juz hold her hand la" Fren A and B teach the guy how to do the next step....the guy refuse it..

"cannot,i dunno whether she like me o not" The guy postponed it again and again.....
"can i take picture wiv u?" the guy said to the girl...
"hmm.....ok (smile) ^^ " the guy was so happy,searching for camera...wanna snatch their 1st time.....

"Can we take after next time when i come n find u?" the guy fail to borrow any camera...
"ok....." tis time the girl dint smile.....the guy neva notice it....and he will lost the smile forever....

After they separate for sumtimes, the girl cry and complaint to her fren....the guy will neva know the reason he lost the girl....

"i miss you....." the guy tell the girl at the phone.....
"sorry,its too late..."
"..........."both stay silent with phone booth........

Guy know the reason from 1 of her bestfren....he was so regret....bcoz the gal was so dissapointed to the guy,while many chance was given...but the guy neva noe appreciate it......The scar still there....The incident happened for few year away.....the guy still blaming himself for hurting the girl....

"Goodbye My Lover~"
The sweetest memory for the guy will burried deep in his heart forever.

Recall.....The memoir of NS

2008-02-23T23:34:00.000+08:00

Sorry ya,guys who read my blog,forgive me dat i m quite shorten memory,and i wasnt a good author,hahaha,so i dunno where did i stop at my previous blog(4 yrs ago),i notice dat,if i m novel writter,my reader might become blur if keep on read my stuff,or if i m script writer,the audience,they will not know when was the movie's ending,normally at half way,i giv up d....hahahaha~

Malaysia are the most unique country,multi racial,multi colors,multi languages,and of coz,when things come into big amount,there where is the problem comes from, 1st month in the camp,fighting,wrestling,boxing contest will show up unpredictable....and den end up,punishment....y human being always protest dat anti racism but they actually are the racist?y ppl always promote bout save the environment,in fact,they take 10 flights per week....and sum country claims they are peace maker,in fact,they are the one who starts the wars,battle for petroleum...tis is human being...hiprocrit...haha

Ok,back to camp.haha~ laztime when high sch,i neva c ppl fight b4...when i c ppl fighting in the camp,1st thing in my mind:Split them.... but if u had use to be it,u will feel dat,watch the show onli,cz no1 will appreaciate u to b the middle man,and u might become sand bag..tis is my advice...i trust dat,sum ppl are born to be leader,sum ppl born to be a buller(kaki buli) thank god my member still ok la,haha..i respect ah fook the most,cz he dare to qurrel wiv the malay....

i love tracking,but i dun hav any good memory in kem sri impian,i love camping,but my campsite always like burning if u see from outside,i love eating,but if u tell me canteen food is food,i can tel u,dog also wont eat it...we had go thru tis all...thank god dat we still alive...haha..i love menempuh halangan,but hor...the 1st time i tried,i had ald taste the water wiv sum dead frog...ewww..imagine how gross the water.....

Dun trust survivor show is Survivor,big posible dat they are actor onli....according to my experience,u dun have time to argue wiv ur member,everyday when u finish ur trainning,u might feel dat u both legs like paralysing....and i hate marching,onli puppets do marching....
(to be continue).....

Blogger,blocker....

2008-02-21T22:04:00.000+08:00

U juz cant believe the power of blog,u blog,i blog,every1 blog....when sumthg become a trend,human being like to miss use it...look at those politician's blog...honestly,i read it neutral,not supporting any parties,bcoz in malaysia,student are not allow to participating,lolz~i scare ISA ok?!

while i was writing tis blog,i m thinking dat,wat for i write blog,wat i blog for?i blog for who?haha....My view,i feel tat when human being wan to do stg,there will be sum reason there,motive and intension,i blog...for myself,i blog...becoz my fren blog,i blog...becoz i have nobody talk to me...dats y i talk to MSN..ahaha...MSN and those others chatting programme are nowsadays teens soul healer,time killing tools,or mayb hunting machine?who knows...serious,i also addicted to MSN 2....i m aqua,i afraid of being alone....

Blog is a trend,blog make business,blog makes topic,blog makes trouble....blog makes argument and blog satisfy human being's as a peepers satisfaction...human are born to be full of cuiousity,loves to dig other's secret....

Recently,every press talking bout election...vote vote vote~!!vote for democratic....vote for malaysia...i think,we shud vote for people who can make money for us,4D,Magnum,TOTO~!!!wahahaha,jz joking,i dun support ppl gamble....now i only realize dat why laztime text book stated dat"in Malaysia,Gov was fully control on media".....when come to poll day...they play their role as BLOCKER....they block assemblyman who able to speak and do for ppl,but who turn gov's face down...tis is wat i call blocker......

haha..so many nonsense i wrote tis time...anyway..so tired,will post another 1...thanks for who was viewing =)

4 years ago.......

2007-11-19T05:38:00.000+08:00

not purposely to stop,but the blog post it automatically,so weird...just now found something very special in my messy wardrobe,is a letter,letter which mean something for me,a letter i receive 4 years ago,a letter which makes me miserable,heart stolen,souless,a letter which gave me thousand reason to blame on myself....

still remember that teen old days,every1 was desperate for love,curious bout sex,i admit,i m desperate,but not pervert for sure(some people love to call me maniacs, swt ==") haha,just leave it,when everytime i flash back,i feel that myself are like scum,balless,chicky idiot,i m so so so insensible,anyway,my fren again,jung was the reflexion of myself past few years ago,i hope i able to persuade him to do the right choice,in fact,i am people who most not qualify to console him....when i look at jung,only thing i pray for,please dont repeat what i have done,my regretness was nevergone, i had lost many,and i cant dare to try anymore in love...

knewing her,it was a destiny,fated,more to lesson for me,no doubt,i let her down,i do,i swear......

me and her met in a big camp which organised by government programme,we are the 1st batch for this programme,when i get know i have to go attend this programme,my feeling was ignoring,annoying and hoping this nightmare ends before i went down,coz i dun have any well impression on gov's project neither any function...

we have to train at campsite start from the very 1st day,we have been arrange and separate group by group,i am C1 member,haha,i wont forget all my member,something sad is,i lost my members contact.our group have the most chinese among 8 group in the camp,act no ppl bothers bout it,coz u will neva know how was our's feeling when in camp....

my 1st week in the camp wasnt that good,with nasty bed,noisy camp mates,and of coz,ciggies,its driving me dizzy,haha~everyone was in the condition of adapting,no communicate between any of us,busy with own business,is so bored for my 1st week,and sickening too.....the weather there are alot different with my hometown,daytime, we sweat like waterfalls,no kidding,its true,u will notice that every noon u will bathe with sweat...eww~!when midnight,the cool air blow to ur leg,it was just so icy,haha...cool ya~this is my 1st week....to be continue...

sleepless...insomnia?!

2007-11-19T05:27:00.000+08:00

almost 6 in the morning now,cant believe it i still surfing some stupid net(forum,frenz blogs...some porn 2,lolz~!)anyway,how much that i wish i could dream on my lovely bed now,no way,jay's granpa dont likes me,ain't he?!
okies,threw all these stupid shit.....1st time write blog,need to insert some special situation lo...haha,sorry sorry,peeps and dudes out there.recently quite unlucky,lotz of my belongings gone like jung's ciggies ashes...argh,morons..watcha yall step........my mood was gone wrong this few days,wonder why,just no right,actually besides my stuff been stolen(laptop and my converse bag) i dont think i have any things haunts me,nope....now i realize i was wrong,after i found somthing in my wardrobe....

Steven's Corner

fatty

I-THINK (我 想)

body weight problem= health problem

many many times of tomorrow

aging

best friend

Diary

Love drunk

25,i am 25

Social Learning Theory

Bay Song

I met some problems

Plans

Friend.

Racist

It is not the ending i wish to see

Calculative

My life Journal

Racist

Doutbful

life, you will never know until you realize its gone

Its good to be true

heartbreak

How i cure my loneliness. how i cure when i miss someone.

Decision, Dilemma

No. 1

tiger beer

Expression

where am I?who i am?

meaningless

objection

Update

How i wish you were mine

Thoughts.

Education system

Branding

Blogger-blog world

50th

Thoughts

Kean Jung Fan's Club

Homosapien's Battle, Male Vs Female

My mission,my vision

Before......After........

Study week~!!

Inspiration...

A few meter away from industrial world.

Big dream Vs Realistic,"Straight forward" and liar.

I will Miss you.

Meaningful...

Yesterday......

Kaki Ponteng

If i can.....

Santini.

Entertainers??

Lamps....

Impulsive Part II

Impulsive....leads failure

This Era, That Era....

Where am I now...

Alittle bit pieces of Yr3 Sem1

Start over again,i wan to resurrection

My Confession Part 1

FooD H3@V3N

a full compliment for a good father

i love you mama

breathless.....i m letting go

Top of the cloud,we was there dat day

The Phenomenon

Blanko.......recent M3

punishment...

Proudly Present by.................Jason Mraz~

speechless.....

Today's Headline:Public Relations Field

Love Is not tat simple

i know...dat heaven knows

About internship......

Left or Right?Middle ......

Driving behaviors= Man's attitude

Man N Women

I-THINK (我想)